Little words, big message

Sometimes as I write in my journal a very clear message comes to me. Not all of my journaling has been uplifting, in fact sometimes my journal is more like a book of grumpiness. Today was quite different because the message from the writing, even though I have heard it so many times, was quite pertinent and much needed.

Political ads often end with a disclaimer of sorts by the person running for office – saying something like “I am (insert here: The Person Who Wants Your Vote), and I approve of this message.” 

What if each time we hear our Inner Critic or Committee as it tries to tell us we are not good enough…what if we responded to that voice by saying, 

“Hey, I am (insert here: your name), and I approve of what I am doing!”  …large font used here because we just might have to shout those words….

Say to that Inner Critic or Committee this is my best, this is what I have created, this is my life not yours. And in the process learn to say “Yes!” to self, “Yes!” to doing that project the way we thought of it, and “Yes, I can!” when bombarded with doubt.

Please don’t misunderstand; I am not advocating wicked or evil behavior, or doing things that harm ourselves in any way or hurt others.  No.

This is about confronting fear, because that Committee keeps thinking they have the floor.  That Committee comes to order whenever we try to do something that requires courage, intuition, creativity, being original.  Don’t give them control.  Stand on your own two feet and be true to your self.

You are loved here and now.

The powerful message in my journal this day is pictured here. Love will cast out fear. The Inner Critic or Committee does not like love, does not like for you to feel good about who you are.  They want to keep you trapped in fear.  

Let this message from my journal be your message, too. From my personal experience I know we all need this, we need to be reminded, and we need to find that love deep within us. 

Blessings and love to you on your journey….

Nature – from a different view point

Today the challenge was to look at what Nature has given us, and to look at it from a different point of view. This has been one of my more inspirational walks, even if it was cold, snowing, and we did not stay out very long. The inspiration came as we looked at winter, at winter’s colors, at a pond that is in the process of freezing over. I must add that my dear hubby came with me, all bundled up, supportive as ever, though he was already tired.
The nudge came in the words “look at the colors”. Winter is one of my favorite times of the year because it has it’s own special beauty, it’s subdued although intense colors. Even so, today I saw winter through different eyes. 
Blue seeds
After taking several shots around the freezing pond we wandered toward a wooded area, went a few yards into trail, then decided it was time to head home. I held back as my husband walked on ahead and I glanced down at the snow next to the path. 
Submerged oak leaf
Something very small but definitely blue caught my eye. I used a macro setting on my camera and captured this tiny little plant with blue seeds on it, no more than 1/8 inch in size. Viewing it here just amazes me. 
At the edge of the pond there were leaves under the water and partly covered by the ice and snow. The water seems to make the colors of the rocks and the leaf even more brilliant.
I don’t know what these things are on this tree, if they are seeds or dried berries. I saw the beautiful detail in them and very tiny little webs on the edges.
There is a time for everything. A time for each of the seasons, a time to learn, a time to just enjoy.  May you find that time, that place of peace.

Peace of Mind

Yesterday was perhaps the busiest day of the month for me. After hosting Family Promise and having breakfast with them there was a dress rehearsal for the symphony concert… which meant no nap time. Then home for a couple hours of respite before the concert itself. The concert was glorious. The long rehearsal really paid off; but oh, how tired my feet and how tired of holiday music I am now!
The topic of the day was finding the key to peace of mind. For me it is that artist within me that is nudging me more and more these days.
Learning as I go, becoming more authentic, learning to listen deeply, all of this has awakened that little artist inside me. The artist has on occasion compelled me to create. Trusting that artist and letting it guide is sometimes easy yet often times difficult. What makes it difficult is when my selfish ego steps in with Her Committee and critiques everything.
So I’m learning now to allow The Artist to come out and play, to open my heart to the images it brings and create them to my best ability. This Artist wants to be nourished, encouraged, wants to be heard…and is very persistent in how it nudges me.
From deep within
This tree made of fabric is one of those images. The leaves are from an old quilt my Grandma Handell made, one that is torn and tattered around the edges so I didn’t mind cutting it up a bit. The trunk is from old jeans, one pair with the knee worn through… a convenient hole in the tree itself. This tree has fruit as well as a glimpse of the essence of it’s life seen in the hole in the trunk. The stitches holding it in place represent the rain that nourishes and gives life.
Years ago a friend recommended I take my camera and have a “Grandpa Day”. Take photos like I used to along side my Grandpa (who had died several years before) and just celebrate the fun we once had together. The results were amazing, not for the photos I took but for the process itself. Honoring the artist in him and in me and bringing it all back to life.
I invite you to listen to your inner artist. May you find that peace of mind that we all need during this holiday season and all year long.

An Extraordinary Heart

It came to me
Through someone else
An extraordinary heart
In the hands of my husband,
My rock,
My best friend
Not something I created
But present in an ancient stone
A shape of a heart
I capture it, try to edit it,
But nothing looks right.
How can I perfect what is already prefect?